Learned a valuable lesson

So today  learned a valuable life lesson that honestly I should have already figured out.

Never vent about anything online.

Never do it.

I don't have much time for adult conversation considering I have four under three years of age. They are in the stage of getting into everything no matter what and I never get a break. I am Mom 24/7 even when Dad is at home.

I know I am stretched very line. I also know that this will not last.

I also complain about the dumb things hubby says and does and yes he does alot of things. He has a short temper.  This doesn't make him a bad person.  It upsets me greatly but does not make him a bad person. Nor does it make me a bad parent.

We don't agree on our parenting at all. I'm more laid back go with the flow because I am here all the time. If I were more strict I'd go CRAZY.  He is more strict and he is a spanker, I am not. I grew up having parents like that but reversed. My Mom was the spanker, my Dad... I can't remember my Dad ever disciplining me.  Now I do discipline my kids. They get time alone. My tornado three year old Brayden can't stand time alone. It works for him. The others I have never really had to give them time alone. Usually talking to the others works.  Different kids, different disciplines.

I admit we are extremely stressed out. Money wise we are screwed.  I keep the attitude of God provides what we need and when we need it. Hubby makes the income. He feels that he has all this responsibility on it and it makes his short temper even shorter. And yes he yells at me infront of the kids. (I never remember my parents doing that at all which could be why this shocks me so much. I can't even remember my parents having a conversation in front of us. Though my Mom reassures me that they did but I can't recall one at all).
People fight, they get mad, they get over it. No one is perfect at all.

I used to share in a group on facebook. I loved these woman. But I guess I over shared due to no adult contact. I shared what I would consider good news and bad news and the things my kids were doing that drove me crazy.  I won't say what I was told because I feel a bit violated. Especially coming from someone who has had problems of their own.

I guess the whole point is don't judge people. They don't know everything. They don't know how hard my hubby does work to support us. They don't know he tries to find side work when he can. They don't know our struggles or our joys. They don't know now he cooks supper when I am too tired or gets up to go put a child back to bed for the third time that night. Yes he can be a complete jerk but he can be sweet. May be just may be I am the issue, not him. They just don't know.

Maybe they don't understand that I have highly active children. They get into everything. It really is their age and it will pass. They don't know that I took my four kids out shopping alone and they were perfect angels. I even had two of the walking instead of in the stroller.

Whole point is don't judge.